Mind Games Stupid Boys.

I absolutely loathe arguing with people. It takes too much energy, so much tears, a whole lot of pain and frustrations to stay angry at someone. Pure freaking torturous. Even worse if you're angry at someone you like/love.

If they were just outsiders or people you wouldn't give two fucks about, then you can just ignore them or tell them to fuck off. When it comes to your near and dear ones you just have to endure it and stfu. But when you stfu and keep mum, doesn't it just eat you up on the inside? Don't you just hate it?!

When I was young during my adolescent times, I probably argued with my parents every single minute of everyday. Dad would blast it all out and be fine afterwards. Mom would be my worst nightmare. She'd keep me in coven. And that totally freaks me out all the time. I'd try to think of different ways to make it up to her or to make her smile, and I'd just end up saying sorry abit too late. Only after a long while would things return to normal. Phew, silence can be such a killer. Thank god everything is all sweet and dandy now. Hahaha, yeah we are like tight now.

Boyfriends on the otherhand are such a pain in the ass. You love them and you hate them at the same time, bittersweet I'd call it. I'd used to jump in rage and pour out disgusting filthy words and react overwhelmingly everytime we fought. Then slowly, we'd give each other the silent treatment and that awfully darkened fuckface look and see who'd give in and talk again first. I hate it when I'm in the middle of doing that and I have the need to ask him questions regarding the car or something I need him to help out. Yes, I hate losing hehe. Now, it's just too tiring to do all that, you just wanna give in and get over it. Too lazy to fight over little bits and pieces, there's more to life then just being a bitch.

Occasionally if I were really angry, I'd write perturbing sms-es, breaking up in the cruellest way you've every thought of and smirk in satisfaction. No I'm not finished yet. After I'm done with writing the sms, I'd just save it and leave it in draft. I know, what's the point! My anger subsides after I do that, seriously. I'd feel weirdly calm after the fake sms. I know, how sad am I. Resorting to such stupidity. Aiyee.

I'm back again in the silent treatment game, lets hope I win this time eh. And shut up.. nooo! I still believe I don't dabble in mind games grrr! Fuck off! -_-