Goth is back.. and so is the Bigbadwolf.

I dyed my hair charcoal black a week ago. It was really suppose to be a dark mahagony brown, but... it's only a tinsy bit like that under the sun. -_-" Other than that, it's just black black. It's kinda growin' on me now but I might just add a tinge of colour to it when I get bored!

A day after the dy(e)ing session, guess who came to visit? The big bad wolf! The boi just suddenly decided that he was gonna come over and pay us a visit. It's been 3 months since I've seen him, so it has been a while. That was really nice of him huh. :D *swoons*

Sometimes when I look back, I always wonder how I survived our one year plus of LDR. The first time I came to know of this was when I went to Christchurch for holidays june last year. I had to suck it in and pretend I'd be fine though. I remember when we were at the airport, everyone was just standing there, waiting to see me cry. (his asshole buddies -_-") I didn't shed a tear, until my mom called an hour later and asked, "I guess you're back from the airport.. are you okay?"

That did it, tears streamed down my cheeks in big droplets after a few months of biting back. I think I was overwhelmed with too much emotions, I ended up exploding on the phone. It felt great though.

Within that year, I think I travelled three times to see him, once every four months. Funny thing was I actually needed that.. to be apart. I learnt to be a whole lot more optimistic, independent, emotionally stronger, and most importantly, to be able to live alone yet enjoy myself.

Not having a sense of direction was a big minus though. My bestfriend was Mr. referdex after he left. Or more like plenty of gratitudes to my beloved coussies and friends for helping me out. :p He was usually my driver, or just someone I could turn to whenever I needed help. I think I completely shut down my "learning" mode, and decided to just be dependent on him since I always thought that he'd be there. Not very good huh.

So who says LDR's are entirely bad huh? :p

Now the tables have turned. I gotta play tourguide while the bigbadwolf is Mr. Tourist. Won't be a very good one since I'm pretty lousy myself with directions. Wish me luck hehe!